| I quit |
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I'm tired of this livejournal shit. FUCK YOU. Why the hell do you care to read about my life if you hate me so much. I'm tired of it.. I may be gone forever, or for a second, either way I'm through as of now...
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| ::sigh:: |
[12 Apr 2004|08:32pm] |
Where are you?
I havn't talked to Mike all day! :( We talked this morning and then we had a busy day. Eh, today is the first day we havn't seen eachother in like 3 weeks.
I miss you... ♥
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| We need to talk |
[12 Apr 2004|05:26pm] |
Many things have happend that I'd like to write about:
+ "I hate you both" and someone replies "I hate you too" well I'd like to clarify that if the both meant me and someone, I really think it's cool to be mad, but I swear on my life I did not write I hate you too, because I really don't
+ I really like this him, and I know it hurts to move on and be moved on from, but we all move on, and I'm happy right now I want everyone to be happy
+ Easter was great, I wish everyone a belated HAPPY EASTER and it was so much fun to spend it with his family and then mine. :) thanks for a great day by the way
+ I am sad to say this spring break is finally over, I had so much fun, school is going to suck but I'm sure the last 2 months won't be that that bad
Ok, really that's all I have had on my mind... fin
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| An unexpected gift... |
[07 Apr 2004|10:24pm] |
Hmm... this Spring Break started off amazing! I had so much fun at Cocoa Beach with all my friends. We definatly missed Nico and Vivi, but we managed to have such a great time. In between "Hey kid I'm a computer", tanning, and going to Ron Jon, I couldn't have had anymore fun. I swear I can't get tired of these people. Here are a few pictures from the trip. I love you all, and I definatly miss you already! MWA
( spring.break )
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| Random thoughts |
[04 Apr 2004|11:49am] |
+ Mike is crazy
+ My car needs to be washed
+ Mike misses me
+ Everyone is a pothead
+ I like my new underwear
+ ...and Mike
+ My new shirt makes me look from the 80's
+ Yellowcard makes me happy
+ I miss you(meaning Mike)
+ Mike makes me do things because he's a sweet talker
+ I get mad easily
+ I can't be mad for too long
+ Oh my god skateboarders kill me
By the way.. he was on the phone when I wrote this...
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| Lalalaaa |
[03 Apr 2004|11:10am] |
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::clears throat::
I LOVE SINGING.. im singing to Jenny I think she's scared :)
..............IF YOU COULDBE MY PUNK ROCK PRINCESS................... LALALAAAAAAAAA
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| Today was great! |
[02 Apr 2004|11:45pm] |
I loved today. I got up late and had McDonalds went to Mike's before heading over to school. I took one test didn't go to 4th hour and just hung out with Bryan. I went to Mike's before he had to go to work :) I spent the entire day with Cam, Bryan, Jeremy, and Rory. We laughed so much, I was definatly raped. I got paid 4$! :) Um.. I love everything.
Some people are really gay, and I really don't care what they comment or post because FUCK YOU. People need to notice when they're hurting someone because they don't and theyre being assholes. Other than that, people need to chill the fuck out Cam is just a friend. This person who has a problem with me DOESN'T EVEN KNOW ME! So, FUCK OFF.. :)
Anyway, TODAY WAS SO GREAT! I heart you:) MWA!
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| I'm caught up in emotions |
[01 Apr 2004|09:18pm] |
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Lately I've been crying alot. Of course tonight I did again. Today was great, except for the fact that things were a little strange. I really don't like myself. I guess it's not the guys who are weird it's me. I'm this stupid, selfish, flirty, bitch who no guy ever would want to date. Tonight I was told something very familiar. Something, someone once close to me used to say TOO much. I am too flirty, I don't show enough attention to the guy I do like and instead am very friendly with the people I just want as friends. In turn I make people back off. Of course this kills me, I don't even notice it, but everyone else does. Another thing is that I don't think anyone wants to wait for me to get Andrew comepletly out of my head, even if being with someone is what helps. I don't know, I wish I could change, be what people want me to be. But, I don't think it's that easy. :'( ::sigh:: Why am I the way I am... I hate myself sometimes..
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| Well, oh well |
[01 Apr 2004|06:50pm] |
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Happy April Fools Day!!!!!!
Anyway I'm getting nails done and hair cut :)
I heart you.. and I love my friends.. N AND R(not the idiotr r) NEED TO BE TOGETHER.. it's bothering me..
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| Suddenly confusion hit me... |
[31 Mar 2004|08:29pm] |
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I really like Mike, ALOT. But, I don't want this to be rebound. I need to be over Andrew completely. What is it that I feel for him now? I don't think I even know. It's like I love him, but I don't like him. I will always love him, he was my first, the first guy I ever truely loved, the first guy I slept in bed with, and just someone really important. But, the thing is I don't want him back, he's changed so much and I know that no matter what we will never be the same. I like Mike, I really care about him, I really like him, I really want to be with him. But, are we going to fast? I don't want to get hurt, I don't want him to get hurt.
Things need to go slowly, in time everything will come together, and I hope whatever happens, it comes together with Mike... <3
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| Put an x next to what you've never done |
[31 Mar 2004|07:30pm] |
I have never...
( ) been drunk
( ) smoked pot
( ) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) crashed a friend's car
(x) been to japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(x) had anal sex
( ) been in love
( ) had sex
( ) had sex in public
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) cut myself on purpose
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) had a threesome
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
( ) been tied up (sexually)
(x) been caught masturbating
(x) had sex with a member of the same sex
(x) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) stole something from my job
(x) celebrated new years in time square
(x) gone on a blind date
( ) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) celebrated mardi gras in new orleans
(x) been to europe
( ) skipped school
(x) been married
(x) gotten divorced
(x) had children
( ) broken a bone
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| Blah |
[31 Mar 2004|07:19pm] |
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Never let boys drive your car. :( lol... MIKE.. yeah he definatly hit a car with my car.. damn him! He's a good driver though, I PROMISE! I heart you.......
Today was good and fun. I need to finish Animal Farm NOW.. I have a test tomorrow.. poo! Jenny, Bryan and Mike came over to visit, I was happy. We bought my mom a movie and ventured around Wal-Mart :) I watched Something's Got to Give with my mommy. I love that movie! Now I need to read, THE OC IS ON TONIGHT YEAHHHH!!
Adios..
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| Lalalaaa |
[30 Mar 2004|05:29pm] |
I am happy. Yes happy happy happy. I love your kisses and I heart youuuuuuuuuuuu.............. MWA....... (It's only a minor crush though)
Today was great mommy got out of the hospital fine, she's tired though. She needs to rest for a while. Anyway, I skipped the SGA meeting to go see my mommy and daddy. I hadn't seen my dad in such a long time. It was nice. He asked me about herkimire(mike) he said mom told him I liked a surfer dude lol. :) But yeah, then we stopped by Bryan's to say hello. It was fun, we went to McDonald's where I definatly ran over a curb and almost KILLED my car. It was horrible. But it was all good because certain people just brighten my day. Too bad that at school things aren't how they are when we're out of school.......
Whatever I'm out.. <333333
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| well well well.... |
[29 Mar 2004|09:08pm] |
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"It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose, it's only you."
To all those talking shit, take a bump.... Later all
<3 ME
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| I am so confused |
[29 Mar 2004|03:30pm] |
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My "glowing" has stopped. What do boys want from me? I know what I want why do boys never know what they want, or at least express it?
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[28 Mar 2004|09:52pm] |
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I sense that this will be a long rocky road ahead. I'm scared...
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| I don't know what I'm doing... |
[28 Mar 2004|09:38pm] |
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I swear I want Mike to come home fast so I can be happy again. Why did I get so upset all of the sudden. Ew I hate it! Some stupid song comes on and a weird feeling came over me, I remembered listening to my OC mix in Andrew's car and hearing that song with the windows down. I just had an overwhelming feeling of never wanting to have that again. I want Mike to come home so I don't cry anymore...
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| My ear hurts :( |
[28 Mar 2004|03:55pm] |
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I had a fun day at the race track with my mommy, jenny and her mommy. We saw Air Supply and found Jayni and Fran! WE LAUGHED. I was still hyper from yesterday! Oh man, Mike called, I swear just one little call makes my day :) ::sigh:: I never expected this, BUT I LIKE IT! :) I have an ear ache and I think I'm going to take a nap real soon. :) Night
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| If you read this I will love you forever |
[28 Mar 2004|01:52am] |
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First of all, I heart you
Secondly, today was alot of fun. I woke up at around 11:50 and had McDonalds already waiting for me :) Thanks to mommy! Then I went online and the boys were back from their SATs. I headed over to Mike's because he told me to "ANDALEY" We rented Gothika, I was scared. He left for work and I left to pick up Nicolette so we could go to the FSAC thingy. We got really lost in Weston and almost didn't make it. Nat and Vivi were there and we laughed soooooo hard. We decided to go to the movies with everyone and saw Starsky and Hutch and I was like wired and laughed wayyy too much "DO IT!! JUST DO IT!!!" Then we all came here and watched porn which literally made me gag. Then we saw Cabin Fever and Mike finally came over. I was so scared I definatly screamed really loud. Jenny fell when Cameron tickled her and she screamed "CATA... LOOK WHAT YOU DID CAMERON!!!!!" It was funny. I really enjoy life lately :) Mwa mwa to everyone.
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